Unbearable Agony: A Personal Battle With the Puzzling Suffering of Cluster Headaches

It began on a gloomy Monday in the morning in September 2016. I was working as a teacher, trying to settle a new group of students, when a intense sensation bloomed behind my right eye. This was followed by quick shocks, reminiscent of lightning bolts. As the school day came and went, the pain eased and then returned with increased intensity. Multiple times that day I handed over a teaching assistant with worksheets and ran to the staff bathroom to soak my face with cold water. I took aspirin, but the agony remained unrelenting.

The headaches appeared repeatedly that autumn, and again in spring, soon establishing an annual cycle. The autumn months were the worst, then February and March. I could predict the pattern: a warning sensation in the shower, early twinges on the commute, full-blown pain in the classroom by 9.30am. In late 2019, a GP finally sent me to a specialist and I was given a diagnosis with cluster headache disorder.

Cluster headaches typically begin with severe discomfort around a single eye that lasts up to several hours.

About 1 in 1000 people suffer by the disorder, and males are more frequently affected. Attacks usually begin with abrupt, severe pain around one eye that reaches its peak within minutes and lasts for up to three hours. Episodes come in clusters, daily or multiple times a day, and are associated with tearing eyes, sagging eyelids or facial perspiration. There exists an episodic type, which occurs in periodic cycles; some patients have chronic cluster headaches, defined by the absence of long symptom-free periods.

What unites sufferers is the intensity. One study rated the sensation at 9.7 out of 10, more severe than broken bones or pancreatitis. A separate discovered 64% of cluster patients reported thoughts of self-harm amid attacks; the number fell to 4% when they were not in pain.

One patient, 74, a long-term sufferer from Pembrokeshire, finds this understandable. Her episodes began when she was a toddler. “I would hurl myself on the ground and hit my head. That was attributed to being a difficult child,” she says. Her symptoms worsened through her youth. Drinking in her adolescence, similar to several triggers, made things more intense. After having sherry at her graduation party, she remembers hardly being able to see on the bus home.

Her family often mistook her attacks as drunken episodes. Support eventually came from her parent and then from her partner, her spouse. “I was very fortunate to find such an exceptional person,” she says. Hobbs found office work after moving, but often concealed her condition. She was dismissed from one job, partly due to absences during attacks. Her breakthrough identification came in the early 2000s at a specialist neurology center.

Nevertheless, the failure to organize daily activities around erratic pain took its toll. She particularly hated being unable to plan social events, being seen as flaky as a colleague, and even having to be looked after by her family during the incapacitation caused by the worst episodes. “It steals from you of the small freedoms we don't appreciate until they're gone,” she says. She remembers obtaining tickets for a major concert, only to have an attack inside a portable toilet.


Headaches have been described throughout history. “The earliest account of headache originates from the ancient civilizations in antiquity,” write experts in a book on the subject. They attributed the disease to an malevolent spirit who afflicted his sufferers' heads.

Ancient healing texts propose unusual remedies for what modern observers would classify as a migraine. In the medieval times, migraine was recognised as a distinct disorder, with treatments including herbal concoctions to other, more superstitious cures.

It was a Dutch doctor who provided the initial comprehensive description of a cluster headache. In his medical observations, he speaks of a patient “suffering with a very intense headache happening and vanishing daily at specific hours”.

The disorder were only formally recognised by international headache societies in the late 1980s. From the mid-20th century to the late 1990s, they were believed to be caused by a issue with a major blood vessel that delivers blood to the head. Prominent experts in treating the condition note this.

In the late 1990s, researchers released the findings of a research project for which they had induced attacks in patients and observed the attacks in a brain scanner. The data, featured in a prominent journal, showed increased activity of the hypothalamus, which is responsible for human circadian rhythm, when patients were in pain, and a reduction when they recovered.

Despite such advances, identification remains slow. One man's symptoms started in the 1980s and felt like “a balloon being blown up behind my left eye”. Doctors thought he had a sinus issue; he had multiple surgeries before finally being correctly identified in 2014, after a doctor looked up his complaints.

Neurologists say wait times in diagnosing and managing occur because patients are seldom seen during an episode. “You're exhausted and low, but not in severe pain,” one says. He works by eliminating other common head pain disorders, such as migraine, before confirming cluster headaches. A thorough patient history is essential: on which side do symptoms occur? For how long? What season? Are there triggers, such as alcohol? Specific characteristics such as tearing, drooping eyelids and stuffy nose help verify cluster headaches. Once diagnosed, patients may be sent to dedicated centers. But many first arrive to A&E or are given inadequate treatments.

Dorothy Chapman, 78, has experienced cluster headaches for the majority of her adult life, although she hasn't had an attack since recent years. When she was in her twenties, she had her molars pulled because dentists misunderstood her pain. She thinks dentists still need greater awareness. When another patient sought help from a charity, it was she who responded. I remember calling a helpline during an bout in early 2021; a calm advisor talked them through oxygen therapy and drugs until the attack eased.

National guidance on treatment advise that patients are offered high-dose oxygen and/or a anti-migraine medication administered by injection. No oral painkillers or opioids should be used. Prophylactic choices include verapamil, which apparently helps manage the attacks of well-known individuals.

But consultant specialists argue the guidance need updating to reflect a more defined clinical pathway and help general practitioners avoid incorrect prescriptions. For periodic patients, the treatment window is critical: “The duration of the cycle determines the treatment.” Short bouts with infrequent episodes are managed with acute therapy alone. More prolonged or more severe bouts require preventives such as verapamil, sometimes combined with steroids. Many patients also receive a greater occipital nerve block during a bout – an injection into the area of the skull where the discomfort is that decreases nerve activity.

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Savannah Ryan
Savannah Ryan

A tech enthusiast and gaming journalist with over a decade of experience covering hardware innovations and esports culture.